Body, Where are you?

Went dancing today. First time I've done anything physical since labor. Got there. Listened to the music. Moved. But I couldn't find my body. And my knees hurt. They hurt like they did after the marathon. Probably because my low back was sore because I have no ab strength. But my body was missing.

I think my soul hovers behind me, in the upper corner of the room to my left. At least it's close by. There is a part of me that shattered away, gone to another universe. That part I can never retrieve.

So I moved and danced. And had no heart. I left early. One step at a time.

Swimming will strengthen me. Yoga will bring me back.